Simply Just a Concept

Like You Used To

sweettangerine50 — Thu, 21 Apr 2011 03:33:10 +0000

You don’t love me like you used to-
I can see it in your eyes
There is no light left that shines
Only empty, hollow goodbyes

I wish that I could take us back
Through all the memories
To see what was, what we had
Relive it, piece by piece

But nothing ever lasts
Even if you want it to
I don’t seem make you smile
The way I used to do

I want you to be happy
If it means letting you go
I love you and I forever will
I hope you always know

If in the end you still want me,
I will be right here
You are the one who lights my life-
My days, my weeks, my years

But you don’t love me like you used to-
And I know that we’re both scared
But I will always hold close to me
The happiness we shared.

Deep down.

sweettangerine50 — Wed, 16 Feb 2011 05:07:31 +0000

Sometimes you reach that point where your heart and soul feel very heavy and tired.

You feel like a ghost and you never feel rested. No matter where you are.

Something always feels just a little bit off.

And the rain falls, again.

-M

Humans created God.

sweettangerine50 — Wed, 28 Apr 2010 07:43:55 +0000

People don’t want to admit it, but it’s a curse being human. At the center of every person is the very essence of our planet: life. But humans have been plagued with so much more than just life. We think, feel, create, dream, cry, and mourn. Every other creature on this planet just survives and reproduces. Sure, dogs can miss their master once he or she is gone. But a dog won’t take its own life. A dog will eventually wander to find food and shelter before it finds a new home. Because it lives to survive. Humans will intentionally suffer just at the mercy of their emotions and thoughts. There is no sense of survival for humans. We let our emotions get the best of us.
We try to say that it’s a blessing to be as advanced an animal as we are. The sheer magnitude of it led our species to develop what we now know as “God”. Because it couldn’t just simply be an evolutionary and physical change in our species. Someone or something had to create it. And this – the idea of “God” – is where Humans destroy themselves. The simplest explanation is a sense of low self-esteem. Early humans were too unsure and too humble to believe that they were their own creation. So they had to undermine themselves by creating a grand and holy being that will always be more powerful and moral than they are. They know that they will never be as good as God is. But by following this God, people think that they will somehow be better, more righteous, because they are believing in this all-powerful, made-up being.T
he idea of death frightened them, so they invented Heaven. Where, if they devoted their life to God would spend the rest of eternity. Because science didn’t exist then, and the idea of a body simply losing the ability to carry itself couldn’t even be imagined. But not everybody could go to Heaven, oh no. Those who didn’t believe in this God had to go to some place where they would suffer, because life just isn’t fair. So they invented Hell. And someone thought it would be important to jot this all down, so over the course of time, the Bible was written.
All this, just from the thoughts and beliefs of humans. God didn’t create humans. Humans created God.

People have lost their sense of life. The simplest things we feel have been polluted by religion, politics, fashion, government, money, ect. People starve themselves to be thin and “beautiful”, as society has deemed it. Politics leads people to kill themselves. There is no simplicity anymore. Humans have taken advantage of their own power and led us into a black hole.
Homosexuality is one of the best examples of this. People decided that homosexuality was a sin because they were scared. They were the first gays who couldn’t explain what was going on inside their bodies. People just knew that a man’s dangly thing was supposed to go in a woman’s open place, and it felt really good and after a while a new little person popped out. But some people didn’t understand this, and instead were attracted to their own sex. And they believed, again, that devoting themselves to their God would change it and everything would be normal. There would be no more fear. Everything would be OK.

We have slowly destroyed the best thing we are capable of: the ability to love another human being. The only emotion that saves us is the only one that humans don’t have faith in.

I’m in love. It’s not fair.

sweettangerine50 — Sun, 21 Mar 2010 06:29:52 +0000

I was never big on the whole “best friends”/”life-long girlfriend” thing while I was growing up. I could never really stick to friendships, and I was okay with that, but I always wanted some kind of a relationship that I could really grasp and hang onto. So I was pretty happy when I met an amazing guy, fell in love with him, and he just happened to fall in love with me, too. Everyday I’m thankful for having him in my life, and I can’t help but think how lucky I am to have him by my side.

So this whole long distance relationship thing tends to be very painful.

I realized that moving away helped me know that he’s really the one for me. I get that now and I know we’re going to spend the rest of our lives together. So can’t I come home now? Can’t I move back and get the apartment like we talked about? Why do I still have to be here when I’m just miserable all the time.

He makes me happy because he completes me. I feel happy and content and whole when I’m with him. Everything gets off track when he’s not around.

I just want to start living our lives together.

Doors

sweettangerine50 — Sun, 21 Feb 2010 22:35:54 +0000

Sometimes I see doors;
I want to open them and follow
The path where they lead.

And other times-
Just leave them closed.
Nobody can open them
But me;
I’m scared to see what’s on
The other side.

The possibilities are endless,
But irreversible.
And I don’t know if beyond
Lies something better.

I’m too scared to change.